May 15, 2013 - Tulsa Fertility Center
This was a two hour drive from where we live. We left around 8 so we could get there for our 10:15 appointment.
It was very surreal, I was still thinking in my head the whole time that this was not happening to us.
Once we checked in we had to fill out a TON of paperwork. Apparently when you are infertile they require a lot of family history/personal history.
We were taken back to the doctor's office (I will not be putting any names of doctors in here) and he started talking away. Telling me that I definitely had premature ovarian failure.
He also suggested getting a skin biopsy or ovary biopsy to check for Turner's Mosaic Syndrome - that the blood test doesn't pick it up. He said this may or may not tell us some things. I am not a doctor but I was not about to be cut on for a biopsy for maybe getting results. He also stated that my body was currently making enough estrogen because I don't have hot flashes, yet. One thing that I have read online is most girls that have POF have all the symptoms of menopause. The only thing I have is amennorhea (no period) and high FSH.
After this he took us to a room to have an internal ultrasound. I had never had one of these before, it was uncomfortable to say the least. That and the fact that he was telling me he couldn't find my right ovary at all and that my left ovary was shriveled. I could already tell it was going to be a great day (I hope you can sense my sarcasm). He also started the ultrasound out by telling me that my uterus was in great shape and could definitely hold a child. They say hindsight is always 20/20...
After getting my clothes back on we went back to his office. About the hindsight thing, the first thing he said was my body was in great shape in order to carry a child. That the only chance we have of having a child is to use donor eggs and IVF (someone else's egg and my husbands sperm). I was definitely not prepared for this at all. As I stated before I was still in a little bit of denial - that none of this was happening to us.
The rest of the appointment is kind a blur to me. All I remember is that he mentioned donor eggs probably 20 times. He was definitely pushing that on us.
As we were leaving he gave me a prescription for Provera - to hopefully jump start a period. He stated that it was important for me to have at least four menses a year in order to protect my uteral lining and not get endometriosis. I would take Provera for 10 days and see what happens.
While we were checking out they had us schedule a follow up appointment for two weeks later. I failed to mention before he didn't get all of my test results from Arkansas either. I was so upset when we left. Regarding the diagnosis and the only option that he gave us (donor eggs). We went back out to our car and I cried and cried. I must mention my husband is a rockstar, he has been so AMAZING through everything. he truly is my rock and I am so lucky that I married a man like him.
Back to Arkansas we went while having a long conversation on the two hour long drive home.
