Our Next Step

We have been taking a break from everything to do with infertility. Just taking the time to be a couple without the stress of everything. This is easier said than done though, especially with me. I take supplements in the morning and at night, as well as my thyroid medication and HRT. This is an everyday reminder to me of what I have.

Ever since being diagnosed we have fought with everything we have to be able to reverse this nasty disease. However, during the course of the last two years we have chatted about adoption a time or two. Always saying that we would come back to it when and if we are ready. 

When we were on our vacation in July at the beach we had a date night. That night after we got back to the condo we walked down to the beach and sat in some chairs and just talked. Talked about where we have been in regards to being childless, what we are currently doing and what the future looked like for both of us. We both know that we do not want to live our lives without kids. So, after about an hour we decided that we wanted to look in to adoption and see what it was all about, since neither of us know much about it, just the normal things you hear from people. The high cost of it and the long waits for child placement.

After arriving back home to our normal everyday routines, I had been looking online through the state's website. You can sign up through there and submit your application online. That starts the process, then you go through a home study, about 30 hours of classes as a couple and then you are open to get children. 

I wanted so badly to fill out the application and submit it, we were ready for the next step. All that was standing between us was that one little submit button. Before hitting it, we talked about it again and decided we just weren't ready. One thing about marriage is that there is an ebb and flow, you have to compromise, be on the same page. Especially about life altering decisions. So we waited. And thought more and more about it.

One thing that infertility will teach you is to be patient. And I have a feeling through the adoption process we will be learning more and more about patience.

We were sitting out on our deck one night, just chatting about life. And I brought up the whole adoption discussion again. We talked about the things that we are both scared of. We talked about the joy that it will bring us. 

I do believe the two additional months that we both waited and reflected made us even more ready for our journey ahead. 

Since then I had been reading a lot about the differences in state adoption and private adoption. State adoption you normally get older kids, you do have a chance of younger but not a big one. With private you are able to get an infant. 

That saying that "everything happens for a reason" is so true, especially in this case. I think that we would have rushed the thought and actions the two months prior so I am so glad we waited. 

That brings me to where we are today. We are going to adopt, preferably an infant, a child that we can raise with our own morals and values. A child that we can show them the value of family, growing up with the two great families that we are blessed to be a part of.

We are so excited about our future and what the coming months will hold for us. We are happy to announce that we have officially begun our journey to adopt!

Hormone Replacement Therapy - HRT

Since being diagnosed with Osteopenia, my doctors have stressed the importance of Hormone Replacement Therapy (HRT). Since my body is in premature menopause my estrogen is low which normally happens much later in life. With me being so young it is important that my bones are protected since they will be without it for much longer.

I am the type of person that likes to think things out. These are big decisions in my life, taking something for the rest of my life. I was on birth control for 12 years, I don't know for a fact if that had anything to do with my POF, but my body was being tricked each month by hormones that I wasn't actually producing myself. So, I have been thinking about what to do since the end of July.

Since this journey started I have taken a more natural approach, because that is what I believe in. I do not want to force something if it isn't going to happen on it's own naturally. But with saying that I do want to be able to live a long and healthy life the best I can.

My thyroid doctor offers bio-identical hormone replacement. The thyroid medication that I am taking, prescribed by him, is natural instead of synthetic as well.

Natural or bio-identical hormones are the exact same molecular form of the hormones that humans naturally make. They are made from a natural hormone in sweet potatoes or soy beans that is easily converted to natural human hormones.

Based on this information I knew this was the therapy for me.

I made an appointment and went in on Wednesday, 10/1. We discussed the different options, since I had already researched it some we were able to talk awhile about it. One thing that I love about Dr. O is that he takes the time to explain things to me. There is nothing more I don't like than a doctor not willing to talk to me and treat me like a number. He is the exact opposite of that.

I had my blood drawn to check my Estradiol and Progesterone. He also wanted to check my vitamin D, I have been taking this in supplement form as well as calcium and magnesium for my optimal bone health.

• Vitamin D, 25-Hydroxy came back as 86.3 ng/mL, this was in range
• Estradiol came back as 49.5 pg/mL, this should be in between 60 and 100
• Progesterone came back as .4 ng/mL, this should be in between 10 and 20

Not really alarming news to me, when I have had my estrogen and progesterone tested before they always came back low. So, I wasn't expecting any different.

After speaking with the doctor he went ahead and put two prescriptions for me, one for estradiol - .5 mg and one for progesterone - 100mg. We are starting out low and slow to see how my body reacts to it and then will increase the dosages if needed. 

That brings me to today. 

I went by the pharmacy to pick up my prescriptions so I could start taking them. Since it is Friday I decided to just go through the drive thru so I could get home since we had plans for the night.

The lady grabs the two prescriptions, then gets on the speaker. She apologized first, I am guessing because she can see that I am younger, then she said I have to ask you a question in order to be able to give these to you. From the moment she said that, I already knew...

Are you pregnant? 

I swallowed hard and simply said no. This is such a heartbreaking thing for me to answer. Then I got to thinking, crap...I am going to have to answer this every time I am guessing. 

She apologized again, she was a very sweet lady. Stating that by law she has to ask the question. I get it, I understand...but that doesn't make it easier.

As she was sending them out, I asked her if there was a way they could put something on my file. She said no, there was a place to put if you ARE pregnant but there is no where for her to put if you aren't/can't become pregnant. Wonderful news! Oh the joys of infertility.

So, that is one set of prescriptions I will be sure my husband picks up!

Back to School

We have been on our journey through infertility now for a year and a half. The beginning was definitely the most emotional for me. Trying to get through all the information and understanding one sentence that will forever change two people's lives.

Once we digested the initial shock we went in to battle mode. How are we going to beat this? Researching, researching, researching. Looking for success stories to boost our confidence and trying to beat the odds that are stacked very high against us.

Two infertility clinics later we knew that the way for us to go was a more natural path. Our odds according to those doctors weren't very good so we didn't have much to lose.

I have been completely focused on that for the past year, a year and two and a half months to be exact. Sometimes it doesn't seem like that long but sometimes if feels like an eternity.

Things have started to slow down for us. I have taken herbs and supplements for longer than I have planned, I tried acupuncture. Got the right medication to get my thyroid on track. Doing my Mercier Therapy to get rid of my scar tissue and get everything flowing and moving correctly.

When we began the natural journey I was sure that it was going to work, isn't that how things always are at the beginning?! I still have hope, my light is just a little dimmer than it was at the beginning. I will never give up on this, for as long as I live. I will continue to research and find new things that are working for people and happening in the infertility world. But, sometimes one can only take so many hits before it starts getting to them.

This past Sunday I was scrolling through Facebook. I started noticing all of the back to school posts about people getting all of their child's things together for their very first day of preschool, kindergarten, middle school, junior high...etc.

It hit me like a ton of bricks. All of these people are my age. Friends, people I went to school with, family. Everyone but me is getting ready to send their kids back to school.

Not me.

It is crazy how the world of social media can sometimes make you feel inadequate or lonely. When it should be the complete opposite of that.

I decided last Sunday to take a break. From all of it. No more Facebook, Twitter, Instagram. Nothing. Just me and my thoughts.

I knew I wouldn't be able to handle all of the back to school posts that were to come the very next morning. I cried myself to work every day this week and every day on the way home. Passing school busses, school zones, kids walking down the sidewalk.

This week was one of the hardest weeks of my infertility journey. I think last year at this time I was so focused on me and the journey I was on and the newness of figuring out what to do and what the next thing would be to get me pregnant. That I didn't have time to see it or get down about it.

Not this year.

It has been kind of nice to be disconnected from the world for the past 6 days. Just me and my thoughts. Not comparing myself to others, not seeing birth announcements, not seeing the daily reminder that I don't have kids and am clearly not pregnant.

Now, don't get me wrong. I LOVE these things. I love children. I love my family and I love my friends and all of their kids. Most of the time it doesn't bother me at all. I love being able to see pictures of my friends and family that are far away that I don't get to see all the time, and keeping up with them and what they are doing.

Life just sucks sometimes and this is one of those times. Life is not fair. That is one lesson that I have learned the hard way.

I am glad I have had this week to reflect. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger is my motto lately.

Just being real and writing out my thoughts so that when I do have my baby I can look back and see the journey it took and to be so thankful for the things I do have in life.

Loving this quote lately and it is so true!

Endo Appointment and What Next?

I went to my long awaited endocrinology appointment today. When I originally called back in April, they told me it was a 2.5 month wait. I swear sometimes nothing can be easy. If there is anything I have learned through this journey, it is patience.

I had been researching and reading about the pituitary gland. It interested me because there are 6 hormones that are secreted from it. Three of them that I had previously tested and had issues with.

• Human Growth Hormone (HGH) - I don't have any signs or symptoms of this
• Thyroid Stimulating Hormone (TSH) - I was diagnosed in January with hypothyroidism
• Andrenocorticotropic Hormone (ACTH) - the reproductive endo in Little Rock had checked these levels and they came back in range
• Prolactin (PRL) - I don't have any signs or symptoms of this - my blood test levels came back normal on this when tested
• Luteinizing Hormone (LH) - all of my test results from this have been high
• Follicle Stimulating Hormone (FSH) - all of my test results from this have been high (this is how I was originally diagnosed with POF as well)

We began the appointment by going through my pages of test results. I have a one inch binder that I carry around with me to all my appointments. It has all of my medical records, research and inspiration in it. I am sure all of the doctors think I am crazy! 

The doctor was very nice, he explained everything to me. I like this and I like being able to understand what everything means. 

He read through my original thyroid results and noticed that each thing that was tested showed in range. I had never looked at it when I first got it. My thyroid doctor told me that my levels were mildly under active so I went with that. I think this whole time I have wanted something to blame my infertility on. And this was just one piece to blame. It was like a dagger to my heart to hear that there is probably nothing wrong with my thyroid. I know that may sound extremely weird to someone, but when you are told you have a problem, you want to fix it. You want to have a reason. Frustrating doesn't even begin to explain it. Now I am to the point that I don't know who to trust. What doctor is telling me the truth? 

After that blow, he went through my other hormone levels that were off. Since my LH and FSH have always been so high he said that means my pituitary is working on overdrive. So, there is no need to test it or look in to it any further. If there was something wrong with it the number would be low. They are the opposite. Since my ovaries aren't responding they just keep secreting the hormones, causing the levels to elevate. 

I usually do pretty good in my appointments now a days. But, once someone starts giving me sympathy it makes me so emotional. I of course started crying, then once I get worked up about it I usually can't stop. Nothing like a little awkwardness! 

He also did a physical exam, checked my reflexes, eyes, throat, thyroid, lungs, etc.

He explained just as the other doctors have that most of the time with my diagnosis there just isn't a cause for the disease. It makes me feel so helpless. I have tried everything that I know to do. 

For a year and a half. In the grand scheme of things that doesn't seem like that long. But when you are living it every single day it seems like an eternity. I have never wanted something so bad in my entire life. 

In my head this was the last thing that I had to get checked out and I was just sure that was it. Each doctor I go to, I am just sure they can give me a reason. 

I think the time has come that I just accept that I may never know the reason. 

That isn't easy for me to say. That doesn't mean I will ever give up on it or myself. Or my future family. I will fight this until the day I die. I may not know why now, but I know that everything happens for a reason. And maybe I just can't see the big picture right now. 

We have a busy couple of months coming up. I plan to spend that time taking a break from all of the research/medical records. Constantly asking why...I just need to let myself breathe and relax. Take time for me and take time for us as a couple. Slow down and enjoy family and life in general. I feel like once we have the time to do that we will know what the next step will be in our journey.

I will always lean on hope and know that this will only make me stronger.

I found these two quotes and I absolutely love them.

A Dream is a Wish Your Heart Makes...

Wow, I can't believe that it has been almost a month since I have updated my blog. Life has been kind of crazy and busy lately. Which is a good thing because I haven't had the time to be down and sulk about my situation.

Not a whole lot has changed. I am still doing my daily routine. Taking herbs/supplements in the morning and evening. Still going to Mercier therapy every other week. I am taking a break from acupuncture. We discussed it and I am taking about 6 weeks off to give my body a break (per my acupuncturist). I have missed it. It is so relaxing to me, and each time I would go it would knock me out cold in to a deep sleep.

I got my thyroid results back after being on my medication for 8 weeks and everything has leveled off. Which is a good thing. I was hoping to have been able to lose some weight, no chance. I was reading through a few things about hypothyroidism that says a person that has it has to work 3 times harder than an average person in order to see results. Add full blown menopause on top of that and life is just perfect! That really bothers me, but I am going with the mentality of one day at a time. I do what I can.

I have been in a rut mentally and emotionally the past few weeks. I thought that spring would be a welcoming season for me. Not so much. Nothing like everything being reborn from the winter months to really slap you in the face. Every day on my drive home I see the new baby calves and foals. Just another reminder that everything can reproduce but me. I know in my mind that this is a horrible attitude to have, but some days you just have your moments.

I have been incredibly sad too. Any little thing just sends me in to a flood of tears. This is so odd to me because at the beginning of my journey I was really upset and then once I kept going things seemed to level off. I know it just takes a toll. I am approaching a year on my natural path and haven't seen any results at all from it. Not even one drop (pun intended!). That bothers me...A LOT! At the beginning, I read success story after success story which really boosted my confidence. I know my chances are slim. I get that. If I was a betting woman I wouldn't bet on something that had a 5% chance.

I see pregnancy announcements, gender reveal parties, baby showers and new babies being born all the time. And I want that so bad. My peers are all having children. These ARE my child bearing days. This is what my body is supposed to do and it isn't.

But, then there is faith and there is hope. So thankful that I have both of them. Always there for me to lean on.

I have always compared infertility to the stages of grieving (I need to do a post on that later). And it could not be more true. The only thing is that you are grieving something that you have never had. Just a small glimpse of what we could have. I have never wanted anything so bad in my entire life. I struggle with the why all the time too. Why is someone that is addicted to drugs able to have children and I am not? I don't think that I will ever have an answer to that question. I know that I have to be patient and believe...but it is still so hard. The thing about grieving infertility though is that it keeps going. I don't know that I will ever have closure on it.

I was flipping through the channels the other day and Cinderella was on. Funny how when you are a kid you memorize all the songs to Disney movies, but I never thought about the words until I heard them that day. I feel like I was meant to hear that at that moment. And it couldn't be more true...

A dream is a wish your heart makes
When you're fast asleep
In dreams you lose your heartaches
Whatever you wish for, you keep
Have faith in your dreams and someday
Your rainbow will come smiling through
No matter how your heart is grieving
If you keep on believing
the dream that you wish will come true

I have been reading this each day, as a reminder that I just need to keep on believing and my wish will come true!

Infertility Study Complete and Thyroid Labs

I finished my infertility study that I was a part of. I was worried that I wouldn't have enough to talk about for the hour and a half sessions, but I was wrong. It really is crazy, a lot of times I feel like I haven't done that much or could be doing more with my diagnosis. But, when I look back in my book and on my blog I have really accomplished a lot. Granted I haven't achieved the end result I am looking for.

The first session was a "get to know me" part. What is my diagnosis? What does it mean? What have I done in terms of treatment, etc? That was the easy part. 

The second session was more about the emotional part of infertility. I speak to my husband and family members and friends about my infertility. I have always been very open about it, it is not something I am ashamed of because I now know that it is not my fault. I struggled with that statement a lot in the beginning. Was there something I could of done? What if I wouldn't have taken birth control for so long? But, that wasn't going to get me anywhere. I am a fixer by nature, when you have a problem, you fix it.  It is what it is and there is truly nothing I can do to change it. There were definitely some deep questions. And it took me back to a place that I haven't visited in awhile. I got choked up a couple of times. Not being able to have a child and grief go hand in hand for me. I have mostly happy days now, but somehow the grief part of it has a sneaky way of coming up on me. 

The third session was just a recap of  what we talked about the first two sessions. One of the questions that she asked me was "How does infertility define you?" That is not something that I have ever thought about so it was a hard question for me to answer. I wish I could say that I haven't let it define me or that it doesn't define me but that isn't true. It has changed the person that I am today. I have a lot thicker shell than I used to. I am a lot more sensitive to things than I used to be. It is constantly on my mind. I just know in my mind that all of this is for something else. Just have to be patient and see what that is. I know in my heart that one day we will be parents.

All in all I am really glad I did the study. It taught me a lot about myself and helped me get some emotions out that I wouldn't normally talk about.

I had my normal acupuncture appointment a couple of weeks ago. She suggested that I take the Barnes Thyroid Test again to see if any of my temperatures had changed. My average came back at 97.4 and it is supposed to be over 97.8 so I am still a little low.

I also went today and had my blood drawn for my follow up labs at my thyroid doctor. Hopefully, the medication that I have been on will have helped some. If not, we will just keep increasing the dosage until I get to the right amount.

I saw this quote the other day and I love it. I kind of have a thing for quotes :) Sometimes they are what gets me through the day!

Show Us Your Life - Infertility

I am linking up to Kelly's Korner blog this morning. She does a "Show Us Your Life" post on Friday's and today is about infertility.

I was diagnosed with Premature Ovarian Failure (POF) in February 2013. I had just turned 29 years old. I have been on my journey now for one year.

POF is the loss of function of the ovaries before age 40. Basically your body goes in to premature menopause. Most people with this diagnosis have hot flashes, night sweats, etc. All the signs of menopause. I have been lucky so far. My only symptoms are my high FSH and amenorrhea.

I was also diagnosed last month with hypothyroidism. This means that I have an underactive thyroid. There is a lot of information out there linking infertility and thyroid issues so I am hoping this will get me one step closer.

Since I started my journey last year I have decided to take a more natural approach. I have been to numerous doctors, 2 fertility clinics and have received the same information from all. That I have a 5% chance of getting pregnant on my own, the same is true if I were to do IVF, only 5% chance with that as well. Since the percentages are so low the only option they give me is donor egg through IVF. My ovaries aren't working but, my uterus would be able to carry a baby.

Back to the natural part. I take herbs/supplements each morning and night. I have been going to acupuncture. I started Mercier Therapy (natural/manipulative therapy on your abdomen). All in an effort to get my body back to what it is supposed to do.

One thing I have learned throughout my journey is that you can never give up hope. It isn't easy, everyday reminders of pregnancy, people my age all having children. Infertility can be a very lonely world. Everyone in my life has been very supportive but unless you have gone through it/are going through it, it is hard to understand.

I have really learned a lot about myself so far. I am a lot stronger than I ever thought I was. My husband is amazing, I knew this before, but until you go through something this hard I guess you don't appreciate it as much.

I am happy about our decision thus far. For now we don't want to do the donor egg/IVF option. We have talked about fostering/adoption. But, aren't in a hurry. We do have some time. One other thing that I have learned is to take time to think about large life decisions. Everything does get better with time. A year ago at this time I was much more emotional/raw. Since then, I don't cry as often and have become stronger when talking about it as well.

My blog is about my journey so far. My hope is that I will be able to help just one person.

Will be praying for everyone going through this journey as well XOXO

Thyroid Testing Results

I had my thyroid appointment last Thursday. I went to Dr. O. I really liked him. He actually sat and spoke with me for 30 minutes which most doctors that I have seen have not done that. He was very easy to talk to and was in agreement with everything that I am doing. He also has treated a patient that has the same thing I do so I really feel like he gets it.

I received my test results this morning. My thyroid is mildly underactive with a mildly elevated TSH. Ideal is 0.7 - 1.0 and this number elevates if your thyroid is underactive. Mine is 2.74 so it is elevated. So I have officially been diagnosed with hypothyroidism. He is suggesting I start a trial of Armour thyroid - I will take one pill a day for 6 - 8 weeks and then get my hormone levels tested again. We spoke last week about the pill as well - it is a more natural pill so I like that aspect of it, it goes along with my path that I am taking. He told me that he likes to start dosages out low and go through a trial period and then increase it if we aren't seeing results. My pill that I will start out on is 30mg.

He also told me that I don't have Hashimoto's thyroiditis. I was so sure that I had it that I wasn't prepared at all for that answer. I was fine initially finding out about it. But, the hard part for me is telling people. The first thing I did was call my husband and I just broke down in tears. Each time that I have to tell him this isn't it just kills me. I just feel like when there is a problem I should be able to fix it. And I can't do that with this.

I asked the lab since they were taking my blood if they could test my FSH and LH while I was there. FSH (follicle stimulating hormone) is the hormone that they tested at the beginning, since it was so high that is how they diagnosed me with POF. The highest it has been is 123, then it has also been 114 and 104 so I guess a positive would be this is the lowest reading I have had - 94. However, in order to get pregnant they say it should be under 10. Other things that I have researched say that it isn't a true reading anyway unless it is on day 3 of your cycle and since I don't have one it is an inaccurate reading. I guess it is all in the way you look at things.

All of this and the fact that it is freezing cold and dreary outside, my husband is out of town on business and I feel like I am coming down with a cold didn't make for a great day. Lots of tears and disappointment. I normally try and be positive but this is real life and I am blogging so that I can look back once I am pregnant and see all that I have been able to overcome. So, I am just putting all the truth out there, even if it isn't pretty.

Below are all of my test results:

Test	Result
TSH	2.74
Free T3	3.5
Free T4	1.28
Reverse T3, Serum	14.1
Thyroid Peroxidase	8
FSH	94.5
LH	34.3

I picked up my pills this evening and am going to start taking them in the morning. 

Another Piece to the Puzzle

I have been on a mission ever since I finished my thyroid test. 

I went back to acupuncture yesterday and she told me more than likely based on my low temperatures and symptoms I have hypothyroidism. She started me on an iodine supplement - taking 225mcg per day with the rest of my supplements that I take. I will do this for 2 months and then retake my temperatures to see if there are any changes.

So with that I looked up hypothyroidism: Often called under active thyroid. This is a common endocrine disorder in which the thyroid gland does not produce enough thyroid hormones.

On Friday night I had a girl reach out to me that was reading my blog post about my thyroid test and she told me she too has thyroid problems. To be exact, Hashimoto's thyroiditis which is known as the most common cause of hypothyroidism, it is known as an autoimmune condition. {Everything happens for a reason}

Now, when I started my whole journey and when I was diagnosed all three doctors that I have been to have told me that the cause of my POF is unknown (most cases are). This is due to the other test that I had completed coming back as negative (Fragile X ). But one thing that has always stuck out in my mind with POF is that when you look at the causes that are known from it a lot of them are attributed to autoimmune disorders. Lightbulb!

That led me to look up Hashimoto's thyroiditis or chronic lymphocytic thyroiditis: this is an autoimmune disease in which the thyroid gland is attacked by a variety of cell- and antibody-mediated immune processes. It was the first disease to be recognized as an autoimmune disease.

I have the following signs of Hashimoto's thyroiditis:

• Weight gain
• Sensitivity to heat and cold
• Dry, itchy skin
• Memory loss
• Infertility

I just really feel like I have finally figured out another piece to all of this. I won't know for sure that I have it until I get some additional blood tests taken. I will be going to a local doctor that specializes in thyroid on the 23rd, I can't wait!

I also did some additional research on Hashimoto's - I found this on the Cedars Sinai health conditions. 

Other Associated Disorders

Although the majority of patients with Hashimoto's thyroiditis and their genetic family members will never experience any other autoimmune condition, they do have a statistically increased risk of developing the following disorders:

• Type 1 Diabetes Mellitus (insulin-requiring)
• Graves' disease (goiter and hyperthyroidism or overactive thyroid)
• Rheumatoid arthritis
• Pernicious anemia (inability to absorb vitamin B12, potentially causing anemia and neurologic problems)
• Addison's disease (adrenal failure; the adrenal gland provides cortisol to handle stress and illness)
• Premature ovarian failure (early menopause)
• Vitiligo (patchy loss of skin pigmentation)
• Thrombocytopenic purpura (bleeding disorder due to inadequate platelets in the blood)
• Lupus erythematosus (autoimmune disease that involves skin, heart, lungs, kidneys)

Do you see the 6th point?! Seriously...this is the only infertility disorder on here and only 1% of the population have POF. I don't think this is a coincidence. I feel like this is HUGE!!!

I was telling my mom this whole story today at lunch and I teared up when I told her. I finally feel like I am getting somewhere. Like all of the things that I have been doing have finally paid off. I have struggled with this part of it. Doing everything and then getting blood tests taken that show no improvement. Not starting my period after finishing my 12 sessions of Merciér therapy. Let down after let down. But, I have kept the faith and stayed positive and this is what it is all for. 

FINALLY - a breakthrough. January 23rd can't come soon enough!

Barnes Thyroid Test - Final Results

I finished my Barnes thyroid test today.  I failed it.

There are two different ways I can look at this:

1. I failed ANOTHER test - just another way of my body not functioning correctly
2. Happy that I have peeled back another layer of this diagnosis and will be able to get some answers

I am going to go with the 2nd. (The first is what originally crossed my mind but I told myself to suck it up and that I need to stay positive).  Like I have said before attitude is EVERYTHING and you choose what your day will be.  You get a clean slate each morning when you wake up - you can choose to make it a good day or choose to make it a bad day.  

My average temperature was 97.2.  Based on the paperwork this would be considered hypothyroid. The interesting thing is that when I Googled hypothyroid and infertility there are numerous articles about infertility and thyroid problems.  This intrigues me and I can't wait to find out more about it.  I am scheduled to go back to acupuncture the second week in January so I will give her the results and we will discuss the next steps from there.  

Acupuncture and Barnes Thyroid Test

I had an acupuncture appointment today.  A few weeks ago I had found an article on a page in a group that I am part of that had an article about a girl with POF and different acupuncture points that were used for 9 months and she was able to get her period back.

Dr L had reviewed this and had some questions to ask.  First, she gave me a piece of paper with 4 different options.  She asked me to choose which one best fit my symptoms.  As I was looking through them none of them had a lot of my symptoms.  As I have gone through this whole journey and with everything I have read most people with POF have a lot more menopausal symptoms.  I do not, just an absence of my menstrual cycle.

We discussed this and I chose the best option. She then took a look at my tongue, it looked healthy.  I asked her about this and she said you can tell a lot by a person's tongue.  So, I am glad mine looked healthy.

She also did some different points.  I was a little nervous because the first ones were in my back. She put them in at an angle and then I laid down on my back so she could put all the other needles in the points on the front of my body.  Strangely enough I didn't feel the needles in my back while I was laying on it.

We also discussed my thyroid.  On all of my blood tests from the beginning of the year this level came back regular.  My TSH level came back as 1.28 - completely normal range.  She asked if I would be willing to take my temperature each day.  I already do this with a digital thermometer in my mouth to see if I am ovulating or not.  She explained that this was a throw a way thermometer that you place under your armpit and take it before you get out of bed or do anything in the morning.  I agreed.  I mean who wouldn't want to take their temperature by mouth and under your armpit at the same time each morning before getting out of bed before you are really awake?!

I brought home the test and will take it for 10 days in a row.  My average temperature for those 10 days should be 97.8 or above.  If it is below then more than likely my thyroid is abnormal.  This would explain the 30 lbs that I have gained since all of this has started.  And no matter what I do I can't seem to get it off.

My homework is also to take a look at my pills that I currently take to see if any of them have iodine or kelp in them.  Dr L says this is a natural way to get the thyroid to even back out.

The thermometer is called Tempa-DOT, it is a single use thermometer that I will use each morning and throw away.  The kit came with 10 strips.